i'm losing her

minggu lalu gw sempet ngerasa sedih banget. seorang temen gw ninggalin gw (dan temen-temen yang lainnya) secara tiba-tiba. tanpa kabar. tanpa pamit. gw inget banget, terakhir kali gw ngeliat ayu itu tanggal 19 januari kemaren. oh iya, lupa gw bilang kalo gw sama dia itu satu kos dan kamar kita sebelahan. jadi tanggal 19 itu setelah gw selesai kuliah, gw balik ke kosan dulu untuk nemenin fira ngerjain tugas. kamar sebelah sepi, berarti ayu udah pergi kuliah. selesai fira ngerjain tugas, sekitar jam 3 kita langsung bergegas untuk balik ke kampus. niatnya sih mau makan siang. pas lagi siap-siap itu tiba-tiba hp gw bunyi dan ayu nelpon

"din, lo dimana?"
"gw lagi di kos, tapi mau ke kampus nih"
"oh yaudah kalo gitu ntar kita balik bareng ya"

that's it. akhirnya gw ke kampus dan disana gw ketemu ayu. tapi, baru aja gw ketemu sama dia tiba-tiba dia pamit ke gw untuk pulang duluan. yaudah, gw kira dia mau melakukan sesuatu di kosan, makanya dia pulang duluan. dan gw gak tau, bahwa saat itu adalah terakhir kalinya gw ngeliat ayu. malemnya, kamar kosan ayu sepi. biasanya suara tv dia kedengeran sampe keluar, jadi gw tau kalo dia ada di dalem. yaudah akhirnya gw masuk kamar, dan mikir mungkin ayu lagi pergi dan belom balik. besok paginya, gw berniat mau minjem catokan rambut punya dia, tapi ada sesuatu yg bikin gw ngerasa 'jangan dulu deh ke kamar ayu, kayanya lagi ada sesuatu'. dan gw emang bener-bener ngerasain itu.

setelah kuliah, barulah gw dapet kabar bahwa ayu pulang ke bali. oh yaudah, gw pikir mungkin dia pulang sebentar dan bakal balik lagi sebelum uas. tapi besoknya, hari rabu. kabar terbaru gw terima lagi. ayu ke bali dan gak akan balik lagi ke jkt. dia dapet masalah keluarga yang serius, yang bikin dia harus balik ke bali. ini bener-bener mendadak dan bikin semua orang kaget setengah mati. hari rabu malemnya, abangnya ayu nelpon gw kalo di udah ada di slipi dan bakal ngambil-ngambilin semua barang-barang ayu yang ada di kosan.

i'm losing ayu. gw kehilangan temen gw di kampus. gw kehilangan temen kosan gw.

dan ini untuk yang pertama kalinya buat gw ditinggalin temen secara tiba-tiba begini...

new cellphone pleaseee

again, UAS is finally coming to binus. and tomorrow will be my first day of UAS. i have prepared well for tomorrow, so i'm free for tonight. don't have to study hard like my others friend hahaha (devil mode on).

lately i have an obsession to do! everbody is influenced by blackberry phone or just call it BB. i love my pinky nokia phone, and i don't have any plan to replace it with the new one. but everything changed just because my father offered me a new blackberry bold! oh my god, how could i refuse this once in a life time offer. then, this phone became my new obsession for lately. but i know my father was just kidding because for the next he changed his mind and offered me another cellphone. jaaaaah i don't care and i don't care. i just want BB bold be mine! hey dad, mulutmu harimaumu!

praying praying and praying for this bold phone

boys do shopping, too

yes, i laughed loudly when my boy friends (not bf) were shopping. sebenernya mereka terpaksa untuk belanja. jadi gini ceritanya, hari minggu kemaren mereka ikut nokia race di plaza senayan dan sayangnya gagal menjadi juara. and the good news is, mereka masing-masing dapet vocuher belanja di sogo dan metro sebesar 400ribu dan harus dibelanjain hari itu juga atau voucher bakal angus. dan tragedi terjadi saat itu juga. ini pertama kalinya gw nemenin 6 temen cowok belanja dan mereka bener-bener kelabakan kaya dikejar belanda keliling sogo metro untuk belanja. jadi inget deh acara di rcti jaman dulu yang judulnya uang kaget, orang dikasih uang 1 juta dan uang itu harus diabisin dalem waktu 30 menit, kalo gak abis sisa uangnya bakal diambil lagi. dan mereka kelakuannya bener-bener in a rush, lari kesana kemari bingung apa yang mau dibelanjain. beda banget sama cewek. kalo gw dapet 400ribu kaya gitu, dalem waktu kurang dari setengah jam gw bisa belanjain uang itu tanpa sisa. but boys can't do such thing.

and they opened the fitting room's curtain then asked me for my opinion

"menurut lo baju ini gimana?"
"tapi gw lebih suka yang tadi"
"baju ini bagus gak sama gw?"
"tapi menurut lo bagusan yang ini apa yang tadi?"

or when they were looking for branded shoes (macbeth or converse)

"sepatu ini bagusan warna marun ato item?"
"eh tapi yang merah terang juga bagus juga ya"

but after hearing my opinion they put back the shoes or the shirts and walked in a hurry to other corners. i just laughed, posisinya bener-bener terbalik. seharusnya cewek yang ditemenin cowok belanja dan cewek yang minta pendapatnya ke cowok, tapi hari itu semua posisi terbalik 180 derajat. and guess what, mereka baru selesai belanja jam 10 malem. oh boys you just made me pusing tujuh keliling. tapi lucu juga karena ini pertama kalinya gw nemenin cowok belanja rame-rame. and they acted so funny. you guys looked so cute when got confused haha.

only boys who held sogo and metro shopping bags (i'm the white sweater girl)

bandar lampung

last weekend was my first time visit sumatra island, bandar lampung for 4 days. it took about 8 hours to get there by bus and ship. i was tired because it was absolutely a long trip. but that was my first time so i enjoyed it. fyi it wasn't some vacation. my oldest cousin held his marriage there. lampung was extremely different from jkt (iyalaaah). there were no high buildings or elegant shopping centers with branded shops inside like in jkt, but i loved its blue sky (and the sunset was damn cool). i have never seen such very blue sky in jkt before (yes because jkt got the best polution ever). eventhough lampung was a good place but i once wondered, if someday something happens and i'm forced to move and stay in a far away place from jkt such as lampung or others far away place from jkt, could i survive there? noo, gak bermaksud sombong atau gimana loh, it was just my wild imagination, haha. okay, the next thing is my family got addiction to durian, and i was the only one who didn't eat durian. the second day in lampung, my family bought a bunch of durians and they seemed like enjoy that cursed fruit. iuuh why do people love durian? the smell is so bad like kentut! haha back to topic, it makes me sick talking about durian. so, i did like the last weekend's trip to lampung. and the next destination will be pekanbaru, maybe.