i'm losing her

minggu lalu gw sempet ngerasa sedih banget. seorang temen gw ninggalin gw (dan temen-temen yang lainnya) secara tiba-tiba. tanpa kabar. tanpa pamit. gw inget banget, terakhir kali gw ngeliat ayu itu tanggal 19 januari kemaren. oh iya, lupa gw bilang kalo gw sama dia itu satu kos dan kamar kita sebelahan. jadi tanggal 19 itu setelah gw selesai kuliah, gw balik ke kosan dulu untuk nemenin fira ngerjain tugas. kamar sebelah sepi, berarti ayu udah pergi kuliah. selesai fira ngerjain tugas, sekitar jam 3 kita langsung bergegas untuk balik ke kampus. niatnya sih mau makan siang. pas lagi siap-siap itu tiba-tiba hp gw bunyi dan ayu nelpon

"din, lo dimana?"
"gw lagi di kos, tapi mau ke kampus nih"
"oh yaudah kalo gitu ntar kita balik bareng ya"

that's it. akhirnya gw ke kampus dan disana gw ketemu ayu. tapi, baru aja gw ketemu sama dia tiba-tiba dia pamit ke gw untuk pulang duluan. yaudah, gw kira dia mau melakukan sesuatu di kosan, makanya dia pulang duluan. dan gw gak tau, bahwa saat itu adalah terakhir kalinya gw ngeliat ayu. malemnya, kamar kosan ayu sepi. biasanya suara tv dia kedengeran sampe keluar, jadi gw tau kalo dia ada di dalem. yaudah akhirnya gw masuk kamar, dan mikir mungkin ayu lagi pergi dan belom balik. besok paginya, gw berniat mau minjem catokan rambut punya dia, tapi ada sesuatu yg bikin gw ngerasa 'jangan dulu deh ke kamar ayu, kayanya lagi ada sesuatu'. dan gw emang bener-bener ngerasain itu.

setelah kuliah, barulah gw dapet kabar bahwa ayu pulang ke bali. oh yaudah, gw pikir mungkin dia pulang sebentar dan bakal balik lagi sebelum uas. tapi besoknya, hari rabu. kabar terbaru gw terima lagi. ayu ke bali dan gak akan balik lagi ke jkt. dia dapet masalah keluarga yang serius, yang bikin dia harus balik ke bali. ini bener-bener mendadak dan bikin semua orang kaget setengah mati. hari rabu malemnya, abangnya ayu nelpon gw kalo di udah ada di slipi dan bakal ngambil-ngambilin semua barang-barang ayu yang ada di kosan.

i'm losing ayu. gw kehilangan temen gw di kampus. gw kehilangan temen kosan gw.

dan ini untuk yang pertama kalinya buat gw ditinggalin temen secara tiba-tiba begini...

new cellphone pleaseee

again, UAS is finally coming to binus. and tomorrow will be my first day of UAS. i have prepared well for tomorrow, so i'm free for tonight. don't have to study hard like my others friend hahaha (devil mode on).

lately i have an obsession to do! everbody is influenced by blackberry phone or just call it BB. i love my pinky nokia phone, and i don't have any plan to replace it with the new one. but everything changed just because my father offered me a new blackberry bold! oh my god, how could i refuse this once in a life time offer. then, this phone became my new obsession for lately. but i know my father was just kidding because for the next he changed his mind and offered me another cellphone. jaaaaah i don't care and i don't care. i just want BB bold be mine! hey dad, mulutmu harimaumu!

praying praying and praying for this bold phone

boys do shopping, too

yes, i laughed loudly when my boy friends (not bf) were shopping. sebenernya mereka terpaksa untuk belanja. jadi gini ceritanya, hari minggu kemaren mereka ikut nokia race di plaza senayan dan sayangnya gagal menjadi juara. and the good news is, mereka masing-masing dapet vocuher belanja di sogo dan metro sebesar 400ribu dan harus dibelanjain hari itu juga atau voucher bakal angus. dan tragedi terjadi saat itu juga. ini pertama kalinya gw nemenin 6 temen cowok belanja dan mereka bener-bener kelabakan kaya dikejar belanda keliling sogo metro untuk belanja. jadi inget deh acara di rcti jaman dulu yang judulnya uang kaget, orang dikasih uang 1 juta dan uang itu harus diabisin dalem waktu 30 menit, kalo gak abis sisa uangnya bakal diambil lagi. dan mereka kelakuannya bener-bener in a rush, lari kesana kemari bingung apa yang mau dibelanjain. beda banget sama cewek. kalo gw dapet 400ribu kaya gitu, dalem waktu kurang dari setengah jam gw bisa belanjain uang itu tanpa sisa. but boys can't do such thing.

and they opened the fitting room's curtain then asked me for my opinion

"menurut lo baju ini gimana?"
"tapi gw lebih suka yang tadi"
"baju ini bagus gak sama gw?"
"tapi menurut lo bagusan yang ini apa yang tadi?"

or when they were looking for branded shoes (macbeth or converse)

"sepatu ini bagusan warna marun ato item?"
"eh tapi yang merah terang juga bagus juga ya"

but after hearing my opinion they put back the shoes or the shirts and walked in a hurry to other corners. i just laughed, posisinya bener-bener terbalik. seharusnya cewek yang ditemenin cowok belanja dan cewek yang minta pendapatnya ke cowok, tapi hari itu semua posisi terbalik 180 derajat. and guess what, mereka baru selesai belanja jam 10 malem. oh boys you just made me pusing tujuh keliling. tapi lucu juga karena ini pertama kalinya gw nemenin cowok belanja rame-rame. and they acted so funny. you guys looked so cute when got confused haha.

only boys who held sogo and metro shopping bags (i'm the white sweater girl)

bandar lampung

last weekend was my first time visit sumatra island, bandar lampung for 4 days. it took about 8 hours to get there by bus and ship. i was tired because it was absolutely a long trip. but that was my first time so i enjoyed it. fyi it wasn't some vacation. my oldest cousin held his marriage there. lampung was extremely different from jkt (iyalaaah). there were no high buildings or elegant shopping centers with branded shops inside like in jkt, but i loved its blue sky (and the sunset was damn cool). i have never seen such very blue sky in jkt before (yes because jkt got the best polution ever). eventhough lampung was a good place but i once wondered, if someday something happens and i'm forced to move and stay in a far away place from jkt such as lampung or others far away place from jkt, could i survive there? noo, gak bermaksud sombong atau gimana loh, it was just my wild imagination, haha. okay, the next thing is my family got addiction to durian, and i was the only one who didn't eat durian. the second day in lampung, my family bought a bunch of durians and they seemed like enjoy that cursed fruit. iuuh why do people love durian? the smell is so bad like kentut! haha back to topic, it makes me sick talking about durian. so, i did like the last weekend's trip to lampung. and the next destination will be pekanbaru, maybe.

new playmate

ta-da! another new old game that i have bought. tamagotchi. it was our childhood most favorite game. brought it to school and playing all day long even in the class haha. now it's the newest version, quite expensive but worth it (for me). i asked gita, fira, kanti, vhero and sarah to buy the same one. hey you guys just swore to me to have your own sooner. if you think i'm a bit childish or seems like masa kecil kurang bahagia, i don't mind. believe it or not my lecturer also have one. once i saw her playing her tama in the class. lecturer yang aneh. then i won't open the case before my other friends buy their own. surely we'll open it together. nanti kita kawinin yah binatang kita lewat infra rednya :)

keep up the good work

before read this, please read my post on november 20 2008 first!

it's crack and now broken. we're forced to break this little community. it's hard for being separated, hiks. AH LEBAY GW. but it makes me sad enough. we were just 3 at the beginning (those days were the hardest for 3 of us), then we got 6 new comers and getting closer day by day. it's (a bit) not fair. we're consists of 9 and if compare with others, it means we're just the littlest community. yey congrats, we're the one and only who disappeared and gone. tinggal nama saja haha. i've been about 1 year and 3 months here anyway. last but not least, still go go go, creautism!

eeh i think i'm wrong. we're absolutely unseparated partners in crime! HAHAHA

jakarta's night view

well, it was me captured it from 33rd floor bellagio apartment, kuningan. it just one of my favorite things to do, standing on the high place and staring at the night sky. just imagine i'm the owner of the apartment, the city lights shining brightly around you, even you can see it while you're going to sleep. maybe it was my last visit because the owner (my cousin) is gonna move to tebet. huh. i prefer living in an apartment to a house because bebas nyamuk, tau! but earthquake is the worst risk of living there.

other taken pictures outside and inside the room

please, i really dream of living in an apartment! rrrggh

eh eh i'm happy my two weeks meccha holiday is finally coming to town! thanks to christmas day and new year hehehe. i like the decoration of christmas, the red and green colors dominate everywhere. red and green, it's a good color combination for me. but i don't celebrate christmas, actually. then i just wanna say happy christmas to people who celebrate it, including my close friends! simply i'll ask you a question, what kind of present do you get on this year's christmas? hehehe tell me ya later

binus has its new cafe & lounge

i heard our cafe lounge on the 8th floor is now open for public. and wow this lounge is a right place to get some relax. hmm i bet i'll miss my class for more and more. hahahaha. fyi, the building is being built and i'm curious for our next new facilities.

i do like the facilities. but binus got the first place for the most terrific traffic! rrrgh.

hey after having some shocked interview therapy i got a new position as an editor in chief (i was coord of design before). i admit it, it was @#$%^* when you were interviewed and your own friends watched over you. rrrrgh again!

private wet party ;p

thanks god, it was sunny and windy! happy happy playing all day long. sayangnya saya tidak berenang, because i'm not good at swimming haha

twilight the movie

when this movie released in jkt, i was totally surprised. i just bought the book on sunday, and i haven't finished read the story yet. nadia asked me out to watch it together, then i refused. sorry nad! i'm still reading the book haha. but suddenly i changed my mind.

for god sake, for heaven sake and for anything sake, i couldn't stop staring at rob pattinson. he was damn so cool. mulan jameela mode on "you are the sexiest creature god ever create" haha. mr. vampire please take my soul, and make me yours, ok? i don't mind watching it again and again and again. i give 1000 thumbs up for your movie, mr. pattinson and ms. stewart!

fyi, i just broke up with shia labeouf, now i'm officially available for you, robert pattinson! :)

i'm thinking overload

i feel a bit bored and no spirit lately. something, ehm many things came out and interrupting my mind. and this is the second time i can't share my problem to anyone. just praying i can live normally just like before a.s.a.p :)

hey, yesterday's jakjazz was so much better than last week's jgtc. i was fed up when i couldn't watch afgan's performance at jgtc, i was forced to take a rest in my friend's car because the hard rain came down. so i was too excited finally i could see afgan in a very close distance (fyi i was in front of the stage lohh). oh yeah some performances also made me so whoa like indra lesmana and dj nino featuring chika asamoto. i really enjoyed it, the people wasn't too crowded and the food was yum yummy. i'll come again next year for sure! and i'm now waiting for the upcoming javajazz hohoho.

AH forgot to tell that i took a picture with kido twentfirst night! he's so arifin putra look alike. haha he is also in the same college as me, two years older. information system loh, waw so cool. meet you at the college sooner or later, mister!

JGTC (jazz goes to campus by FEUI)

jazzier than ever worst than ever
photo taken from kanti

Yesterday I went to jgtc which is the event I’ve been waiting for. Came at 1 to catch twentyfirstnight’s performance. but I was late. Actually I wasn’t well physically so I was a bit giddy there. Rained at 5, all performance was delayed, everybody was hiding from the rain under any where they could find. This year’s jgtc is so bad and a total failure. Because of the heavy rain performances were late, wet, and I was separated with friends. Even I didn’t have the mood when tompi and the groove appear. Except for maliq, I admit they increased my mood by a little, but still in the end of their show rain came down again. And once again, I’m totally wet. sorry to say, this year's jgtc was jazzier than ever worst than ever!

photo's comments

nindy said: ck..ck..ck kaya lagi nntn dangdutan trus ujan hahahahaah

kanti said: majalengka di goyaaang! uugggh! hauhahaha

autism

the creautism

let's see. how if 9 persons become 1. just wanna show everyone here, those ppl are my friends in crime HAHAA. creative minded but having some autism syndrome :D

UTS SUCKS

yesterday was the second day of my lovely uts. and today's exam sure will be more lovely than yesterday. kanti told me that our lecturer for this mata kuliah is a bit rasis. arggh, berani-beraninya banget dia ngelakuin something freaky like that! so, i will have bad score for this mata kuliah just because i'm originally indonesian? hmm, crying all night long is the best idea i think, so my eyes bakal bengkak and smaller this morning. hahaha sorry just kidding. but i don't know is it true or not. just praying my lecturer not that kind of person :(

eh ngomong-ngomong tentang game, saya tertular bermain pet society di facebook. it's kinda interesting. boleh dicoba kalo lagi iseng gak ada kerjaan. secara di notebook gw permainan yang ada cuman game house semua. dan dari dulu pengen nginstall the sims tapi entah kenapa selalu gagal dan gagal terus.

oh iyaa, minggu ini akhirnya gw berencana untuk dateng ke jgtc (jazz goes to campus) di UI. sebenernya gw tadinya gak berencana untuk dateng ke jgtc. tapi gara2 gw gak jadi dateng ke jakjazz gara2 telat beli tiket (dengan harga yang murah), satu-satunya cara buat nebusnya ya dateng ke jgtc dan nonton maliq and the essentials! aarrrrgh lale wait for me there, darling! HAHA

our streaming si now on air!

please read this slowly. take a look at my blog's profile on the right side, i just put a new column. our radio streaming is now on. feel free to listen, request song, or send the message. well, i'd like to describe it once more.

bvoice radio. as it familiar called just by bvoice, is the only radio station on binus university. merupakan radio kampusnya binus university. berlokasi di basement floor kampus anggrek binus, dan terkenal dengan pintu kuningnya yang dipenuhi dengan stiker-stiker dari berbagai elemen di jakarta bahkan di seluruh indonesia. setiap harinya bvoice on air di seantero kampus anggrek binus dari jam 8 pagi sampai jam 8 malam. bvoice punya 5 divisi utama: announcer (sekaligus producer dan reporter), marketing, creative, operational divion dan music director. and for me, being a leader of design bikin saya kalut dan terus berpikir bagaimana cara menjalankan tanggung jawab dan kepercayaan dari sang station manager supaya tidak mengecewakan dia. fuuuh

dan sekarang, setelah sekian lama streaming bvoice mengalami gangguan teknis, akhirnya mulai minggu ini streaming bvoice radio resmi mulai on air lagi di internet. how to listen us, just click on the third column on the right side. bagi yang cuman hobi online malem2 atau untuk orang yang kena gangguan insomnia, streaming radio kita tetep jalan dari jam 9-12 malem (dan bahkan bisa sampe subuh). it's fun for sure!

SO LISTEN US RIGHT NOW, IT'S NOW OFFICIALLY ON AIR! THX

high tension

oh my gosh, our lovely uts is getting closer and i haven't prepared well. and also i forget to take the exam card. i planned to take it in this week but something was happened and it made me a bit kacau balau. it wasn't a serious thing but i took it seriously and then suddenly i cried. i couldn't share it with my friends even my best friends. desperado and the lucky person who was forced to hear my problem was that guy who's 3 months younger than me (sorry, secret identity hahaa). actually, i'm not that close with him but what i thought at that time is "yes maybe he is the one who will let his shoulder to be cried on hiahaha kepepet). now i'm just hoping he's not telling this little secret to others. fiuuhh.

just read people's personal message on msn, i found out that my juniors experienced their first time ice skating at sky rink mall taman anggrek today. haha it's funny when i remind my first time too. maybe i should tell something first. my radio campus has weekly activity on friday and it called on ice. as crew at radio campus sure we have press id card, and we play ice skating for free by showing this magic id card, but it's free only for friday ya. talking about id card, this year is my turn to design the id card. but i got some slack (or misunderstanding, maybe) with my creative director, so it finally wasn't me who designed the id. now some of id cards have just naek cetak. so tired while rechecking the others and suddenly found out some mistakes there. maybe tomorrow will completely done, i wish..

girls only

baru-baru ini gw membantu salah satu temen gw untuk bikin frame ulang tahun untuk mantan pacarnya. he did anything for his ex, dan gw sampe kaget banget pas tau apa kado ulang tahun yang udah dia beli buat mantan pacarnya itu. bukannya gimana2, tapi kado itu menurut gw terlalu mewah untuk seorang mantan pacar. yaudahlah gak usah dipermasalahin, toh dia bilang kado itu barang terakhir yang bakal dia kasih ke mantannya itu. terharu saya ada cowok sebaik itu di dunia ini (haha lebay deh gw).

satu lagi, gw mau cerita suatu hal. sejak semester 3 kuliah ini, semangat kuliah gw menyusut drastis. sering bolos (gara2 kesiangan ato males), gak pernah nyatet tugas, gak pernah bawa buku kuliah, udah gitu kelas gw itu gak bisa titip absen gara2 dosennya hafal sama semua anak2 sekelas gw. ditambah lagi ada sekumpulan cewek yang gak gw suka di kelas gw. alesan kenapa gw gak suka sama mereka, karena mereka sering gak ramah sama temen2 gw, gak tau apa masalahnya. sejak itu, gw selalu jutek dan pasang muka gak enak ke mereka. iya, gw gak suka banget sama mereka. yes, i do like this part. udah lama gw gak punya musuh di kelas. luckily, i'm originally indonesian and they're not! sorry ya kalo gw agak rasis begini, tapi ini juga karena mereka duluan yang bersikap gak enak ke gw dan temen2 gw. HUH

shia, please kill me

kaget ngeliat blog gw tiba2 berubah jadi putih pucet begini? yeaa, i'm back to my old skin. dulu gw sempet make skin putih gw ini. then i decided to use this skin for the second time. kenapa? cuman pengen ngubah layout blog gw aja biar keliatan lebih simple.

and now i'll introduce you my new boyfriend

mini biography
shia saide labeouf
los angeles, june 11 1986
jeffrey labeouf and shayna saide's beloved son
but his parents were divorced about years ago
then he moved to LA with his mom

i wish he will be my future husband sooner or later. what? you said i'm a dreamer? but everything is possible, huh. jadi boleh dong berdoa dan berharap supaya lelaki favorit gw ini suatu hari bisa menjadi pendamping setia hidup gw. amin :)

nb: eagle eye, his new release movie is recommended to watch. i'm serious.

recca's bullying birthday

sudah gw bilang, semenjak masuk kuliah ini gw berubah jadi manusia yang kasar dan kurang berperikemanusiaan. males kuliah, maen melulu, dan buka2an aja ya, kegiatan menyenangkan lainnya adalah nge-bullying temen yang tidak bersalah. gw jelasin dulu ya, jaman sekarang ini yang namanya kaya gini udah lazim dan bukan hal yang aneh. contoh konkritnya, geng nero yang beberapa waktu lalu sempet gencar jadi berita di tv. i'm enjoying this, you know. HAHA, emang gak berperikemanusian, tapi ngelakuin kaya gini merupakan suatu kesenangan pribadi buat gw, dan tentunya buat temen2 gw yang laen juga.

HAHAHAHAHAHA UDAH AH BOHONG AJA NIH GW

ANYWAY, ITU ULTAH TEMEN GW, REKHA.

dia kita iket di depan kampus, di pager depan basement (yess). terus kita siram2in sama kuah gulai, kuah kikil, kuah bayem, kuah sop jagung, kopi, tepung, telor, sama aer sampah bekas cucian dari warteg bude di depan basement. SI REKHA BAU, RASAKAN SERANGAN DARI KITA SEMUA HAHAAAAAAA, AJANG BALES DENDAM SEMUA ORANG NIH. sempet jadi tontonan orang2 dan sempet bikin macet jalanan depan basement kampus gara2 ulah iseng kita ini. tapi sumpah gw gak ikutan nyiram2 sama ngiket2 dia di depan pager kampus gitu. itu tentu saja ulah para lelaki haha. tugas gw cuman sebagai dokumentasi sajaa.

NO HURT FEELING REK, semua bakal dapet giliran kaya gini kok HAHAA. marah mulu cepet tua ntar cepet keriput cepet beruban cepet peyot dan cepet ompong! hahaaah pokonya rasakan serangan maut dari kita! HAHA

10 facts about me

gw dapet tag dari lalla, disuruh nyeritain tentang 10 facts about me. agak bingung sih, soalnya hobi gw kan suka memutarbalikan fakta, haha gak denggg.

these are 10 facts about myself:

1. tukang tidur, dikarenakan hobi gw yang setiap harinya selalu bertengger di depan laptop, mengakibatkan insomnia dan akhirnya selalu tidur diatas jam 1 pagi. makanya, besoknya gw selalu bangun siang. dampak negatif berdampak sama kuliah gw yang semuanya dimulai di pagi hari. akhirnya? gw selalu absen kuliah shift pertama. CALON IP 4 BGT!
2. laptop addicted, gak bisa hidup sehari aja tanpa ol. kalo gak ol dunia serasa hampa (lebay). gak puas ketemu temen di kampus, dilanjutin ngobrol di msn dan ym. buka fb, upload foto baru dan comment foto baru, begitu seterusnya. termasuk nulis blog juga, dan mengutak atik photoshop tentunya, dan belajar illustrator :)
3. pemalas, yah ini sifat umum semua orang. contohnya, sekarang ini gw ada tugas numpuk, tapi belom gw kerjain sama sekali. penyebabnya? ya karena poin kedua diatas itu, HAHA.
4. susah untuk serius. gw suka dan senang bercanda, suka melucu dan suka menghibur orang. tapi kayanya gw terlalu keterlaluan gara2 suka bercanda atau gak serius di waktu yang gak tepat. parah lo dine ;p
5. i have pipi tembem. mereka bilang saya bakpau, somay berjalan, bakso joko, dan kata2 lain yang serupa tapi tak sama. sempet mikir juga sih, kenapa pipi gw menyembul nyebelin kaya gini, apalagi setiap hari selalu dicubitin (haha tapi enak sih dicubitin) orang2. gak cuman pipi, lengan gw yang stasiun ini (glambir), selalu jadi sasaran empuk buat digigit. jujur ya, lengan gw sering membekas biru2 kaya korban penyiksaan fisik.
6. boros. ohyaaa, uang thr yang menggiurkan kemaren itu nyaris habis dalam waktu sehari. i love shopping and spending money, tapi bokap gw bukan orang yang berak duit loh. kebiasaan gw ini udah sering diprotes sama orang tua gw, tapi tetep aja gak bisa ilang. kenapa ya?
7. sadis. gw suka hal2 yang berbau kasar, sadis, dan gak berperikemanusiaan. makanya temen2 gw suka julukin gw happy tree friends. khayalan gw setiap hari gak jauh dari hal2 yang sadis dan berlumur darah haha. tapi jangan takut sama gw ya, pikiran gw emang selalu sadis, tapi kelakuan gw itu halus dan lemah gemulai kook
8. hobi makan. gw suka makan, suka ngemil, makanya gendut kaya babi begini (HAHA NGATAIN DIRI SENDIRI). tapi gimana dong? menurut gw makan itu menyenangkan sekali. gw selalu menunggu waktunya makan siang dan makan sore (tapi gw gak menganut kebiasaan makan pagi dan makan malem)
9. shia labeouf addicted. sejak ngeliat dia di film transformer, gw langsung tertarik sama dia. dilanjutin aksinya di film indiana jones, dan yang terkahir adalah eagle eye. he is doing act perfectly. temen gw bilang, nama shia labeouf artinya adalah "terima kasih tuhan atas daging yang kau berikan ini". a bit weird, huh?
10. senang berkaca. gw gak centil, gw bukan cewek2 gaul jakarta, tapi gw suka nyisir, bedakan, ngaca, maskaraan, eyelineran, pinsil alisan, pake soft lens, pokonya berdandan. tapi gw bukan CEWEK CENTIL, gw cuman berusaha untuk terlihat lebih dewasa, karena orang2 bilang gw ini seperti anak2. HUH

and the lucky tagged people are: rasti, chi2t, odhie, meiggy, citra dan fraya

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